Category: Story

November 7, 2019

November 7, 2019 “I was playing a future in Mexico in 2005. It was the beginning of the third set as I was running to a ball I felt something very painful in my knee. My opponent hit a normal volley cross court and while I was moving to the ball my foot just got stuck and felt my leg go in the wrong direction. I couldn’t move at all and was forced to pull out. I immediately went back to Colombia to get an MRI and any other test I would need. It was hard to hear that this injury would need surgery. It was only a week and half later when I was getting it done. It took a really long time to recover, about six months without any activity. It was about nine months until I started jogging again. I fought to play some singles matches after this but completely stopped playing singles in 2013. The fact I was able to even come back to competition was amazing. I had a huge group of doctors and physios who were working with me everyday. They would continually encourage me to prove to myself that I could return at (more…)

November 5, 2019

November 5, 2019 “I was born with one arm. I guess I always tell a shark story or something crazy when other people ask about it. I just have a bit of fun with them. I am pretty sure the umbilical cord got wrapped around my arm and just stunted the growth. For me, it’s not even a disability. I’ve had it my whole life so it’s become very normal. I’ve said this before, I look at people with two arms like they’re a bit weird. My whole family plays tennis; mom, dad, both my older brothers and grandparents on both sides. I guess I just grew up around all sports. I started playing all of them actually, then it got to the point that tennis was the one that I wanted to keep going with. I ended up going to college, playing first singles my last year, and decided I didn’t want to give up on it. Luckily enough, my parents are helping me, along with a few other people, so I can carry on and play the lowest level of professional tennis but for me that’s huge. I just love it. Two and a half years ago I (more…)

October 30, 2019

October 30, 2019 “I am almost 50 years old and far from an athlete. Growing up I was slow and weak. Playing organized sports was never a serious option as I just could never keep up. I grew up in a small South Louisiana town that didn’t even have a red light. Baseball was big in those days and most of my friends played. I tried early on but it didn’t take long to realize that I needed another hobby. After age 15 I never played a sport again. The notion would come up now and again but it didn’t take long after picking up a glove or volley ball that I knew sports just wasn’t for me. Then in May of 2014 something horrific happened. I was working on a Master’s Degree in Public Health at LSU when one morning during class my phone started blowing up. My mother had been found in her home, murdered. There was nearly a year long investigation before a suspect was finally arrested and eventually convicted and sent to prison. This was a dark time in my life. I had twins under the age of two and I was trying to complete my (more…)

October 27, 2019

October 27, 2019 “I started thinking about retirement around January 2017. It started with a torn muscle in my hand but that was only the beginning. I had gotten Mono and a horrible hamstring injury that sadly turned into hamstring tendinitis. I’ve done everything right to try and heal but it seemed like it wasn’t improving. I knew my body my would never be the same again. With continuous work I could get to a certain level but I needed my absolute best to get back to where I was. After extended time fighting back, I could tell 100% was impossible. It was mentally and physically exhausting and more draining than I could’ve imagine. Even though it was tough to admit, I could tell it was the right decision. The first truly damaging injury started in 2012, the end of the year, when I was diagnosed with rhabdomyolysis, a rare muscle condition that releases toxins into your bloodstream. It then causes your organs to start failing. In 2013 I began to have had heart palpitations. I played for like a year and a half with them and didn’t know what it was and until we found out I had a (more…)

October 23, 2019

October 23, 2019 “I have been clearly struggling for the past three years, dealing with all that pressure and expectation that came after winning gold in the 2016 Olympics. It’s probably been the hardest three years that I’ve ever faced in my entire life. There is a trauma after winning something that major that pushes you flat on your butt. I had an entire country watching me, which was extraordinary, but they didn’t see the darker side. As I became more upset I saw that depression was inevitable when it was tough to get out of bed. At one point you’re on the top of the world and all of a sudden it ends and you just don’t know what just happened. It’s like whiplash. I couldn’t find ways to motivate myself to play. I just didn’t know what to do with myself. There were many times when all I wanted to do was cry every day, in bed, in a dark room. You just continue to question where all your motivation and drive went. That’s when I started realizing that something was wrong and needed to be dealt with. I’m usually, when it comes to my feelings, an introvert, (more…)

October 20, 2019

October 20, 2019 “I feel a wonderful sense of pride for women tennis players and women athletes in general. I’m proud that I was a member of the ‘Original 9,’ and that we risked our careers for the future of women’s tennis, and we stood up against huge odds. People now are talking about equal pay for women athletes, but at the time we were just fighting for women to make a living at all because the men who were running tennis, were trying to shut us down. The Original 9 came up in 1970, but it was only two years before that, that open tennis started. Within those two years, the men who were running tennis made it almost impossible for a woman to continue playing, because there was a total of $5,000 in prize money, all year, for all women in the United States in 1970. In reaction to the terrible inequity, my mother and her magazine contributed an additional $5,000 to two separate tournaments. Besides these additions there were many weeks without anywhere to play. Jack Kramer, who was running the Los Angeles tournament, set the prize money ratio at eight to one, men to women. At (more…)

October 17, 2019

October 17, 2019 “I stopped playing tennis last year. I was in Chicago the week after losing first-round qualifying of the US Open, and I felt absolutely no thrill being on the court. I didn’t want to compete and didn’t care if I practiced or not. I was far more worried about where we were going for dinner than anything else. I wasn’t enjoying my time on the court anymore. My mental headspace was all out of whack. I had no motivation, no real desire to play, and I hated anything tennis related. That’s when I knew I needed to put the racquet down to make sure that I really wanted to play tennis. Right after Chicago, I was meant to play in the main draw of a WTA tournament in Canada, but I pulled out and decided to take a sabbatical. I was more mentally fatigued than I’d ever been in my life. I wasn’t happy playing and that didn’t help me in other aspects of my life. I didn’t have a time period in mind, I just told people I needed a break. At first I thought I would get some backlash for it, but everyone could not (more…)

October 13, 2019

October 13, 2019 “It was 2002, two months before the finals of Davis Cup, I was 20, and my father died. This was the worst moment of my life, the toughest time I have gone through. My father was the one who pushed tennis into my life by bringing my family and I to stadiums to watch tennis when we could. He did whatever he could for us. Before my siblings and I knew anything about tennis, we were going matches. It was a huge surprise to my family and I, nobody was expecting it. We knew his health wasn’t great but no one was waiting for this. Two days before I played Chela in Davis Cup where we competed against Argentina in the finals. This was a big deal because we were already up 3-1 in the matchup when I played him. We were already talking about how we were going to the finals to play France, which was the first time Russia made it to the finals. After I lost my father everyone told me, including myself, to continue playing immediately. They said I had to continue with what I had now, this is what my father would’ve (more…)

October 11, 2019

October 11, 2019 “Afraid to show any emotion associated with weakness, I wouldn’t share with others how debilitating my anxiety was. I also felt isolated due to my sexuality, as my peers and coaches consistently used homophobic language. This only further exasperated my anxiety. My anxiety followed me into high school. By my junior year, feeling the additional pressures involving getting into a good college intensifying, my anxiety had manifested itself in depression. I began to have suicidal ideations and began to self-harm. Too ashamed of who I was as a gay man, I thought I would never find my place in the world, let alone in sports. I believed that I would lose the love and respect of those closest to me. Simultaneously reluctant and desperate for help, I decided to open up to a good friend about my feelings and the dire state that I was in. Worried that my situation would continue to escalate and scared that I would take my own life, he vocalized his concerns to his mom, who then contacted my mom. I eagerly wanted to avoid coming out to my mom. I did not want to disappoint my parents. But when confronted by (more…)