Category: Story

April 19, 2019

April 19, 2019 “2016 was probably the best year of my career so far. I broke into the top 100 for the first time and had some of my best results to date. Unfortunately, that season completely changed my expectations. I began to put a lot more pressure on myself. I felt like more people were watching me now, which made me uncomfortable. I liked flying under the radar and didn’t want to be in the spotlight. My preseason that year was awful, since my focus was on all the wrong things. I was so worried about defending/recreating the previous year I had, that I barely had a single productive practice. A month later, I remember sitting outside the locker room after a first round loss in the Australian open, crying, feeling overwhelmingly stressed out. I still can’t put my finger on why I was so upset at that exact moment, but I knew I was in trouble. It was only the second tournament of the year for me, but I remember feeling like I was already mentally fried. ‘Is this what I’m going to have to deal with for the entire season, or for the next several?’ Last season, (more…)

April 17, 2019

April 17, 2019 “It was almost exactly twelve years ago today. It was April 3rd, 2007. I was in Mexico for Davis Cup playing for my home country of Canada. I was there as a hitting partner but was great to be asked to go regardless. It was only a day into the trip when this horrible incident took place. I had this night terror where I thought someone was in my room chasing me. I tried to get out through the window to jump. I broke through the glass and fell three stories. After getting up I had severe cuts on my legs and back. This happened around 2 a.m, so it wasn’t easy to get anyone’s attention. Luckily after searching for help, there was one person still awake, who helped me get to a hospital. The conditions of the hospital weren’t great and the initial reaction from the hospital staff was terrifying. They suggested to just amputate my leg. They saw how deep and long the cuts were and I had been bleeding out for some time now. The damage to the tissue was really bad too. After sitting in the hospital for two, three hours, my legs (more…)

April 6, 2019

April 6, 2019 “During a tournament in Mexico two years ago, after playing against this big hitter, both my arms were sore for about four days. I thought it was normal and something I had to deal with. Everyone just diagnosed it as tendonitis. After getting through the clay and grass with pain doctors prescribed anti-inflammatories, which did help. I went off them, just before Asia, when I thought I was on these pills for too long. I took about 2-3 weeks off during preseason and then did some strengthening. I was at my career high ranking and wanted to continue the momentum. I went into 2017 playing Doha and Dubai. During Dubai I literally felt my elbow crack. It was now Indian Wells and the discomfort in my wrist and elbow was at an all time high. I was fed up with unqualified doctors and went to the Mayo Clinic to get the highest quality MRI. This doctor found three tears in my wrist and that one of the bones in my wrist was too long which caused the tears and impaction. The first surgery ended up solely repairing the tears, as he did not see the original impaction (more…)

March 30, 2019

March 30, 2019 “As a senior at USC, I was giving my last season everything I had, physically, emotionally, and socially. I planned on hanging up my racquets after, so it felt imperative to end my career on a high note. Because I felt so close to my teammates, I knew it would be special to achieve something big together. As NCAAs got closer, we built great momentum to be a top contender. The pressure was on and expectations were high. Losing in the Sweet 16 was far from what we imagined and was a heartbreaking loss to swallow. I sat in my hotel room afterwards and thought about how it all didn’t feel right. The loss aside, I knew it was wrong to end my tennis career with this feeling in my gut. The next couple months were quite confusing for me. While I was finishing up units in summer school, I was interviewing for jobs. I was conflicted to be working so hard to get something I did not want. Eventually I picked up a racquet again to blow off some steam, and it just felt right. The love was still there and I was not ready to (more…)

March 28, 2019

March 28, 2019 “My first love was basketball and I wanted to play pro. I was about 15 years old when my mother told me that she didn’t think I could make it because I was too short. I, unfortunately, believed her. I never listened to someone that told me no again. I started looking around for a sport to play. Well, that sport became tennis. I watched Michael Chang win the French and he was a shorter fellow. That gave me all the evidence I needed. I always played team sports growing up and I wanted a change. I wanted something more one on one. Singles was my love. It was like boxing, but without the direct violence. I started training at some academies in Los Angeles, while also on my dad’s court. I started late but I was learning fast. I was top 30 in Southern California at this time. I was driven to keep improving. I then moved to Sweden, around 1991, to play tennis full-time because my favorite player was Edberg and I had a friend that lived there. This is actually how I got into music. I broke my wrist snowboarding and it led to (more…)

March 25, 2019

March 25, 2019 “2010 was one of the best and worst years of my life. I became the first tennis player to represent Barbados at a junior Grand Slam event. I played junior French Open, Wimbledon and US Open and was the 47th ranked junior in the world. After the US Open I had to make the big decision of going to college or turning professional. However, things took a turn for the worst when I was in Barbados on break and, out of nowhere, my mother was rushed to the hospital. I lost my mother that night as she succumbed to a battle with pancreatic cancer. This was a total surprise to us (my brothers and sister) because my mother nor father ever told us about the illness. So losing my mother came as a bit of surprise, even though we knew she wasn’t 100%. Now my decision to turn pro or go to college became even harder. I was heavily recruited by UCLA, but my heart was always telling me to turn pro. However, the first couple years of turning pro was very tough. While traveling alone and staying in hotel rooms the thought of losing my mother (more…)

March 22, 2019

March 22, 2019 “Even though I’m a terrible player, starting to play and watch tennis has been one of the best things to ever happen to me. I’ve struggled with my confidence for a long time, as well as battling both depression and anxiety. In 2012/13 it reached its worst, as I was also diagnosed with aspergers. As someone, who was an adult at the time, my diagnosis hit me hard. All of the struggles I had as a child, which heavily affected my life, were explained many years later. Who knows how life would have turned out if I had known sooner? As they say you have to deal with the cards you’ve been dealt. Thankfully I started to watch tennis on a regular basis. I soon discovered forums and a tennis community on Twitter. I was able to discuss the sport I had become obsessed with on a regular basis, with like-minded people. They say people with Aspergers often have obsessive personalities and to be honest I’m glad tennis became that for me. I also started to play tennis at my local club. Despite my ability, there’s no better way to clear my mind than whacking a little (more…)

March 16, 2019

March 16, 2019 “When I was 14 years old, I left home to train on red clay in Argentina for two and half years. I improved greatly from this, getting my first ATP point at 16 years old. I was extremely excited knowing my hard work has paid off and I was maybe one of the top players in my age for the world. It was now time to play Eddie Herr and Orange Bowl in Florida, which are two of the most prestigious junior tournaments in the world. I felt confident that I would play on par with the best juniors in the world and potentially compete for a title. It was the complete opposite of my expectations. It was truly disheartening to not have the results that I thought I would have. I lost a lot of confidence after realizing these other players were vastly ahead of me. It led to my overall unhappiness when I didn’t get the affirmation I thought I deserved. A couple weeks later I lost to a player I previously beat, and that was when I told my father I didn’t want to play anymore. I am not getting the satisfaction from all (more…)

March 14, 2019

March 14, 2019 “Everything changed my third year at the University of Michigan, when I started to think that I wasn’t going to pursue tennis after college. I played my fourth year, while applying for internships at consulting firms. Right out of school I was working as a teaching pro and renting out bikes at Mackinac Island in Michigan. I was always told, especially after losing my job to layoffs, that I should play on tour. My friend brought me along to this money tournament, which I then went through fairly easily against some good players. That’s when I decided to give it a shot, but was only 75% committed. Immediately after taking the LSAT, I realized how young I was and how I should give tennis a true shot. Starting off in India, including the first six months of my professional career, was the worst experience of my life. I didn’t get my first ATP point until the sixth tournament. It was a lot tougher than I thought and it didn’t get any easier. Three years ago, when I moved up to 140 in the world, I had to get foot surgery. I came back, after almost half a (more…)